fuck interview magazine

you know what? it's been like over two years and i just realized i'm still mad about this. ok, so i had done a photo shoot with a musician friend, previously. mind you, i was using film and lights and the whole shebang. they turned out great and are quite frequently associated with little write ups and interviews about her music. a while after that, i get a call from her, or her brother, i don't remember, asking if i can come over and take some pictures of her with a crappy digital point and shoot because interview magazine is doing a review and they urgently needed a photo to go with it and it has to be one that wasn't used elsewhere. no time to do film. so i'm like, yeah, i guess i can do that but it's probably going to suck. then i get it in my head that if i can borrow my boss's really nice digital SLR, which i have no experience using at all, that i will be able to come up with something a lot nicer. the brother-sister think this is a good idea, my boss agrees, loans me the stuff, i go over and take a bunch of pictures. while at their house, i realize i have no idea how to use this camera with all its fancy buttons and menus. however. despite this, i do manage to collect some decent images. most of them were me trying to fiddle with the exposure settings and stuff, but there were a few i thought were downright beautiful.
we did some timed exposures, or "ghosting" shots that turned out nicely but the one i thought was it, was this one of her, looking incredibly stoic and soft. she looks like a gerhard richter painting, i'm certain of it. i had taken one shot perfectly in focus, and another one really out of focus and then through modern technology, sandwiched the two to make this lovely (or so i thought!) composite that shed a fabulous light on our dear musician friend, quite literally.
i sent them a handful of images i liked and expected that one of them would be chosen. i felt like i had accomplished something through great adversity and i could feel proud. i thought an artful publication such as INTERVIEW would see the artistic merit in my haphazard- yet-stunning portrait.
well, apparently, interview magazine said "no way!" and they went with a FAR more whimsical and fun-loving shot that had been snapped by her sister out in the yard with a point and shoot. just goes to show you, you shouldn't bother trying to do anything ever.